Uniquely Me
There is a battle inside of me. I feel like I am torn between art, music, and creativity with the responsibility of ministry and community development. I just want to have an enjoyable life. Just like a bad dream, the burden of impacting the world calls me in the middle of the night. I desire to make a difference. My mind is constantly filled with questions. Will I continue to just have fun or will I get to the business of impacting the world? How can I combine these two? I think the issue is trying to balance myself. I like having fun, enjoying life, and being free to express myself. I am also faced with the responsibility of helping people. My mom said something profound she told me, that it is hard wanting to be average but knowing that God created you to be on center stage. That burden that you feel is purpose. I was reminded of people like Dr. Martin Luther King and President John F. Kennedy. These men lived during the same time and shared a burden to change the world. Is this what it feels like to want to organize a movement? Is this what it feels like to want impact the world? Is this what it feels like to organize the March on Washington? This burden is like an active volcano willing to erupt in any minute.
In late 2009 I made a decision that 2010 would be a year which I have decided to be. In 2010 I have risen from the ashes of yesterday and to proclaim that I am uniquely me. I will no longer live under a mask. That means merging my joy for life with the burden of trying to impact the world. That is why I moved my website from www.antoniolove.com to www.livelifeantoniolove.com I realized that all I can be is uniquely me to live my life and to share my burdens. My prayer is that I live a life that impacts the world each day. I have been created fearfully and wonderfully made. Therefore, the message is also wonderfully made. That means that my life is the message that is designed for only me to tell. This purpose of changing the world has been fashioned inside of me since I was born. I no longer fill the guilt of being who I am. I no longer feel the importance of living under expectations from people who might not understand me. As long as God understands me I am going to be okay. I will not apologize for being me.
We all have purpose inside of us. We all have a message. In 2010 let us all take off the mask and become all that God intended us to become. We all need to live our life in the wonderful. To discover the uniqueness of what God has created.
